BMic lecture first thing in the morning and I lost concentration halfway through the lecture after the break. All because of retarded CSAS. Wa lao! Hate this subject bodoh! Like shit sia! Went to com lab halfway through the lecture to type out the assignment. Went to printing shop to print after lecture. Lecture is retarded. Cause there's like thousands and thousands of bacteria names that are so freaking foreign looking. Ha ha.
CSAS 2 After that. And I'm lucky number 5. Wow. I was shaking like shit la. So was my voice. I bet I did lots of stupid gestures that I didn't notice at all. Cause they come so naturally, I don;t even feel it. Ha ha! Anyway, Mandy was really emotional. And it made Dolyce cry. OMG! She really is suited for The Powerful Art of Storytelling. Lol.
Went to ITAS for lunch with Mandy, Mei Jun, Shi Yi and Chen Yuan. Accompanied Mandy to her classroom after that. She damn lucky la! Everytime tutorial together with Wess Lee. Neh neh la. But I shall not complain cause at least I've got company for one CDS. :D :D
Sent Shi Yi to the bus stop and saw DARRYL YIN! So long never see him alr. Ha ha. And he is still taller than me. LOL. Anyway, went to the library with Low Mei Jun after that. I really enjoyed the conversation that we've had together. I like bodoh! Ha ha. I like sharing and listening. Strengthens a friendship like super glue between paper. :D :D
Went to use the computer at level 4 after that. I found another new function besides the big big chairs and the VCDs at level 4! That is the use of computers. Cool sia TP.
She signed up for iGuides. So good la. So courageous to sign up for everything. I want too. But I scared. Lol. Plus plus plus she told me that he's the sub-comm. And I refused to look at him the other day. Lol. Bye bye seal points! :(
P.S : Mei Jun, I didn;t know that you noticed it too! I thought I was thinking too much on my part.. ha ha!

First lesson of the day : Basic Microbiology. Wow. And TPT came for our 8am lecture when his class starts at 9. He seriously has nothing to day man.
WOO!!!!!!! I was super duper uper happy when Bear bear told me that my second CDS was changed to Water Technology!! I was damn happy la. Ha ha. Plus, I'M IN THE SAME CLASS AS MANDY!!! :) :) :) I hope and hope and hope and hope that they will not change my CDS again. Otherwise I will really go and bang my head against the wall.
CSAS after breakfast. And guess what? We got this super fierce looking teacher. Like what the hell la! And the problem is, she says she's going to fail us immediately if we use singlish during our presentations. Like what the *toot* right? Neh neh sia. Plus we have to do a full 2 minutes introduction of ourselves on our next CSAS lesson. Which is this Friday. Gay la! Plus plus plus plus plus, she wants us to wear something presentable. Double shitty-ness man.
I have a super long 6 hour break after CSAS. Omg. And I was left behind in school by Tay Li Ian. Ha ha. No la. She not so evil. She have to do her stuff. So I didn't tag along. Don't ask me why. Lol. Slacked at concourse before heading to library with bear bear. The supposedly secret place that Mandy and I found at the 4th storey was FULLY OCCUPIED. So lame. So we headed to the Cable TV area. Muahahahaha. We got a space. But we stayed for like 10 minutes before going off. Cause the shows suck like shit bodoh. All news channel. Nothing else. Gay.
And we did something super lame. We booked a table tennis table. So random!! Played for like 43minutes. And.. the winner was
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BEAR BEAR! :(
Shit bodoh. Waste my sweat. Waste my energy. Plus I was playing on an empty stomach. Ha ha. Laughing till my face was like super pain. But it was fun la. Besides the super hot hall. Lol.
Went to ITAS for my long awaited lunch. Ha ha. Slacked more before going for my first ever Water Tech. lecture.
Luckily yesterday's lecture was just the basics. So no harm missing it. Lol. And we're having a field trip to NewWater plant. Lol.

I've forgotten everything that happened yesterday. But the highlight of the day was : my first French lesson + lecture.
DAMN DIFFICULT BODOH!!
And A HUGE HUGE HUGE THANK YOU TO LOW MEI JUN FOR ACCOMPANYING ME!!! :) :) :) Love you sexy! :)
Met Chen Yuan, Jovin, Shermaine and Tiffany on the over head bridge. And I accompanied Chen Yuan to TM. THANKS FOR THE TREAT, CHEN YUAN!
He bought two bermudas before sending me home. Ha ha. :D

Omg omg omg omg omg omg omg! So many people got Water Technology accept for me!!! Shit ass la. I got Problem Solving Techniques which is at Engineering school plus it's from 6PM till 9PM. WTH.. So Lucky sia.Having French tutorial and lecture today. i'm all alone. Boo hoo. Ibet I'll be some kind of anti-social emo shit in class. Hope I'll see one familiar face in class. Chances are most likely to be 0%. Ha ha.
Love love love love love Mei Jun for being willing to accompany me to French lecture today. Sian ar. PST at Engine, French at Business. Neh neh shit.
I HATE MY MONDAYS AND TUESDAYS CAUSE I HAVE TO ENDURE 2 3 HOURS OF BREAKS AND A @ HOUR BREAK ALL BY MYSELF:( :( :( Someone pity me please. Come and find me if you are having your break. Lol.

Anyway, yesterday was the first day of school and we actually had MSt2 lectur. Lol. So retarded. Anyway, this semester's subjects are like god damn difficult. It would really be a miracle if i ever scored 3.5 for this semester's GPA. ha ha.
YAY YAYYAY YAY YAY!!! We're having CCN day next month! So cool la! I never sell things before. Ha ha. Anyway, class committee selection was held yesterday and I got selected. Since Dr. Vijaya said everyone will have the chance to be one, I guess it's better to get it over and done with :) People, look forward to receiving my sms-es :D :D

OMG!! SIAN AR!!! I'm the only one taking French along with alot and alot and alot of STRANGERS! Boo hoo! Must get to know people all over again. I don't want la!! I'm super scared and super sian and feel super stupid now. If only I never write French as my second choice. IF ONLY!! But no use already la! What's done cannot be undone. So I have to face the horrifying French for the rest of the semester. :'(

Yay!! I rejected a job offer and decided to skip another meeting with Dr. Lim. My loss. I know. I felt a pang of regret and ******** after reading Mandy's sms.
But it's my decision. In life, people have to make decisions. Decisions that will change their entire life. Decisions that they might regret. But whatever the consequence, I am the one who made the decision. So I have to bear the consequences that follows.
Recently, I have started regretting my decision to go into a polytechnic instead of a junior college again. I'm starting to think that Junior College might have suited me better. Some people say I have a 'Junior college face'. Some people say I have a 'Business face'. But whatever face they say, nobody ever told me that I have a 'polytechnic face' nor a 'science face'. I even look weird in a lab coat. Wow. I really have no idea what I want to be in future. No goals, no nothing. What I'm doing now is taking whatever comes, one step at a time. I'm a fickle minded ass and I regret most of the decisions I've made. I wish I my mother would have decided for me instead of me deciding for myself. This way, I will not have the space for regrets.
I regretted going to BNSS instead of HSC. But because of this wrong decision, I made friends that I'm confident of keeping in contact with for the entire of my life. I regretted going to a polytechnic. But, also because of this, i made friends that brought joy into my life. I got to know new people and was given the opportunity to make friends with people I knew but never spoke to before. People like Mandy, people like Chen Yuan. They were also the ones that exposed me to the outside world. Getting me my first job. All these experiences would not have been a part of my life if I chose to go to a junior college.
People say that Junior colleges are extremely stressful. Because of what people said, I chose the easy route out. A polytechnic. I admit, I am a coward. But sometimes, just sometimes, I want to experience what JC life is all about. The projects they have to do, the huge amounts of assignments they have to complete, the compulsory CCA they have to participate in and the uniform they have to wear every single day. Stressful, no doubt. But it's the process that counts, right? The laughter they share, the identical problems to worry about, the frequent meetings and late night discussions online. All these things are what I chose to give up on. How I wish JC and Polytechnic are a compulsory part of our lives. Just like how Primary school and Secondary schools are. This way, we will not miss out on any fun and the different forms of learning experiences.
I get stressed over the simplest things in life. Like making a decision whether or not to buy a pair of shorts. It's retarded. I know. But I don't feel a single thing during exams and tests. Maybe just a little bit. Maybe the lack of stress is what makes me who I am. A seemingly happy-go-lucky girl who seems to not give a damn about her studies. Someone to not be taken seriously for. I feel as if I'm just someone to joke around with. Fullstop. Nothing more, nothing less. The problem is, I take things seriously. It's just that I don't let it show. A simple sentence that was said casually stayed with me till today. The person, no doubt, have already forgotten it. The person might not even remember saying it. But I remembered it. I remembered the place where the person said it. I remembered the friends that were around when the person said it. I even remembered that he said it so casually, he did not even look me in the eye. That's how insignificant that sentence meant to that person. But not me.
It surprised me how a simple sms made me think of all these things. But these words just poured out naturally. And I chose to share it with people. Not to make them think that I'm an emo ass that is hungry for attention, but just to share my thoughts. Just to try and lighten the load on my shoulders. Of course, there are more thing for me to say. But not everything can be expressed and typed out in words. And there's never going to be an end if I try to say every single thing. Whatever it is, I just want to say :
Don't fear pressure. For pressure is what turns rough stones into diamonds. :)

I'm going through another phase of Sudoku craze. Ha ha. Imagine, I was doing Sudoku from 10pm to 1.30am yesterday. And I don't feel tired. OMG.
Watched 'Romantic Princess' episode 5 this morning follwed by 'The Last Breakthrough'. Nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice!!! :) :) :)
So far,nobody called about the job. So I'm still happy. ha ha. Wish they will not call this holiday. Just let me enjoy the last week of the Semestral holidays in peace please :)
Received 2 smses about the NDP jacket. And I'm not going o collect it. Cause firstly, it's not the same as the one I imagined it to be. And secondly, I will no be wearing it. Ha ha.
My mum just updated my bankbook and IRAS have credited last month's salary into my account. Yipee! Now I'm $183.75 richer :D Ha ha.

BOO HOO!!!! SCHOOL'S GOING TO REOPEN SOON :( :(

P.S : Mandy, don't be sad k. Cheer up! :)

-Friday
Friday's interview sucks big time man!! Damn nervous bodoh. First person to do a self-introduction. My mind went -blank-. Yup. I was like erm-ing all the way. Aarrgghh! I was still shaking after my turn was over a long time ago. I was that nervous.
Walked around with blocked ears and blocked nose after the whole damn thing was over. My nose was blocked because i caught a flu. My ears were blocked because of the bloody pressure in the lift. And no amount of drinking water helped. Lol. Saw Joanne at Tampines MRT station. Saw Miss Feena at Suntec. She still looks as cocky. Hee.
Had a break at Starbucks where I laughed my ass off because of Mandy. Ha ha. it's difficult to explain. I just know that my stomach muscles were screaming with pain because I was laughing damn hard. ha ha.I loved the part at Starbucks best :)

-Saturday
Fish & Co., here I come!!! :D :D But sadly, I was late. For a bloody half an hour. OMG. I'm rarely late ok. I have a very punctual background.

I was never late for school when I was in primary school.
I was only late ONCE during my 4 years in secondary school.
And I was late twice in all the outings I've had with my friends.

Pro or what? Ha ha. I think the three sentences above will never ever appear in Mei Jun's blog. Ha ha.
Anyway, I got damn excited when I saw Jia Lin. But somehow, her hair was really like some mad woman. Is that style or just pure messy-ness? :) Shared seafood platter for two with Chen Yuan while Mei Jun had fried Calamari. squid damn tender bodoh. The only down side was, they never skin the squid. So retarded.

I love the rice :)

Anyway, I was greatly disappointed by the attitude of the staff in Fish & Co. ha ha. But I was really glad we finally had this meeting after like one and a half months :) Aaron came really late. He reached when we've finished our food. That's how late. But at least he made the effort. Unlike some people who are always the wet blankets.
Anyway, met my mum and sis after that. And I bought a huge Sudoku boo with 1000 puzzles. Shiok bodoh. My mum really sucks at it la. Ha ha. Anyway, I bought three new storybooks wee!! I think I should go and download the stories online. It would save my mum lots of money.
Had dinner at Ajisen's, went marketing at NTUC. And I saw Ethel. The girl from choir. Went home after that.

I wish and hope with all my might that I will get the job as late as possible. Because I'm really not interested at all. And I'm bloody pissed at the staff from IRAS cause they are so freaking busybodies. They complained about me. Gay asses. No more job for me at IRAS anymore. Shit them la. Go die. Bloody pieces of shit. And there's one more thing. And I just hope that 'm just being too sensitive about it. And I hope that's the case. because I don't want another friendship to go bad.

AND PEOPLE, WATCH ROMANTIC PRINCESS :D :D

Finally I updated. I know.

I am dead tired from work. I feel so lazy, I don't even have the mood to turn on my com. What's so difficult? Just turning on the switch, the CPU and the monitor. I don't know either.
I've missed out on so much things because of my work. My first working experience is laborious. And I didn't ask for it. I am just so freaking 'lucky' everytime. I get separated from everyone else. But I am not that down right unlucky. I have company. And I thoroughly enjoyed my time with Mandy. All these days together made our friendship even stronger. Not forgetting about Chen Yuan and Kai Lun. I made another two good friends :)
Somehow, I feel that I am missing out on alot of things. I want to meet up with friends. No contact whatsoever. WTH? I want to catch up with them. But I don't have the time. All this money making frenzy is wearing me out. I dread Sundays. Because Monday is working day. Again. $5.50 per hour. What's the big deal if it means losing contact with friends? If it means getting eye bags and growing fatter? I'd rather spend my holidays lazing at home and going out with friends.

I still have three promises to fulfil.
-Our project
-The lunch I promised you
-Fish & Co.

And I will make good my words. Not so soon, perhaps. But I will. :)
I am feeling emo right now. I want to cry. After I read her blog. I want to say alot of things after reading it. But I am afraid. Cause... It made me feel really apprehensive. I shall listen to Mandy. Let nature take it's own course.



Felicia shall not be despo any more.