Went TM yesterday. As usual. And I saw lots of people that I pretended not to see.
Cause they were all like acquaintances! Like Crystal. I saw her outside Din Tai Feng.
And Felicia. I don't know her. But at least I smiled at her. Ha ha!
Nothing much happened yesterday. Except my mood. It swung from being super happy to super sad. Cause my sister changed her phone!!
My mum super random la! She just bring us go see phone. Then we saw this super sleek phone and I kept saying that I like it. Then she just say, let's go. Go change phone lor! Wa lau! But she changing my sister's phone. Boo hoo! Just because two of the buttons are spoilt and the stupid sony ericsson service centre never call back. -_-"

Damn nice right!!! I like la. Ha ha. Cause it is full touch screen plus a 5mega pixel camera. Roar!!

CSAS results sucked. Omg. Emo-ed for a while after that. Then we went to slack at IT block and went to ITAS to buy ice cream!
My mod lifted after that. OC lab soon after. And guess what we did today? We made azo dye to dye wool cloth! The dye was orange. Shiok man!
But I think the cloth will end up in the dustbin and be burnt at the incinerator plant of buried deep down in the ground for the microorganisms to decompose it. Lol!
My post is funny cause now is already past 12 midnight and I just finished doing the damned APEL service reflection. Wa lao. Ka na sai la! I think until my brain like half dead. So the behind part was like filled with rubbish. Especially the part where we have to plan. Like WTH la! So no link one.. -_-"
But I got it over and done with. Hip hip hooray! :) :) All that I'm left to do now is to print it and do my personal reflection. Like shit. Tomorrow go school sure tired like siao. Gay la APEL!! Grr!!

I haven't been blogging for a long time. But I still have nothing to blog about!! Lol.
One important news. School reopened!! And as expected, I got back all my results. They were alright. OC and PUO were above expectations. PLM was a little disappointing.
Oh ya. Yasmeen beat me in 2 subjects. She reminds me of Mandy. Cause I always lost to Mandy during Sem 1.1 and 1.2 as well. Tsk tsk. Getting FPAth results later. And I think she will beat me again.

Wth. Subject selection today sucked totally. The damn page couldn't even load la! It started at 10. And it's already 10 41 and I still can't get in. Pathetic. If I get into business course. I think I will just die. Oh ya. This is my 301st post. woo!

School is going to reopen soon. Boo hoo hoo!!
First day of school:
PLM followed by OC2 followed by PUO followed by FPath!!
This means that we're most probably going to get back 4 out of the 5 exam scripts. It's going to be an emo day for me. :(
Anyway, there's nothing to blog about. There's OC project meeting tomorrow. And I am so not looking forward to it.

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Q : If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A: What does having a lover feels like? Give me a lover first!! :)


Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A: I wish to be a pretty girl with truck loads of confidence
I wish to stay in contact with all my friends for as long as I live
I wish to have three more wishes. This way, I can wish that I have a bright
bright future, live in a huge huge house, have a tall tall handsome handsome
husband with blue blue eyes and live together till death do us part. :) :)


Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A: I always think that I might be in a dream and when I wake up from it, I may be in a
completely different place, in a completely different situation. But I feel that I am
99% real to the people I'm familiar with. Cause I treat them like how I want them to
treat me. As a friend.


Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A: Yes!!! Cause I am such an indecisive person.


Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A: Maybe. If it's appearance wise, he would have to change me himself. But if it's in
terms of character, I will try. If it's not too difficult. Heh.


Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: Of course being loved by someone!! Anyone out there want to love me? I will love
you back! :D


Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A: I haven't found that someone I really love YET. Maybe he's in some other parts of
the world and haven't fly to Singapore. Muahahaha. So I will wait for as long as my
age permits me to. Maybe. But if some other Singaporean guy comes along, then I
will say byebye to my angmoh.


Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A: Happened before. Just continue liking him cause he wouldn't know that I like him.


Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A: My mum. But we're alright now. And my friend. But my friend wouldn't know
cause I'll never let that friend know.


Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A: Not butterflies. Just a shock. Ad my heart will beat like freaking fast. And I will be
damn worried that I will blush. And my body will feel very warm. Ha ha!


Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A: Nope. Not yet. Maybe in the future. When I've had my first boyfriend. :D :D


Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A: My family. And my friends.


Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A: Like duh. Not that I've liked many people. But whenever I do, the first word that
comes to my mind is "IMPOSSIBLE". So I try to forget about it.


Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A: I wish that my husband and I will continue holding hands even when we're like 80
years old. Of course there will be the occasional tiffs and quarrels. But what's most
important is that he doesn't go and like someone else and I will be the only woman
he loves from the day we get married. Besides his mum and his sis and his
daughter. Which is also my daughter. :)


Q : Are you happy with your life?
A: Rather. Besides the times when I get jealous, or get upset, or feel left out, or
forgotten, or get separated with my friends and have to make new friends... I think.


Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A: Hmm. Ask me again when I'm really in a relationship! :) :)


Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?the lousiest one?OR the better one?
A: I will choose the one that loves me more than I love him. Who will give me the
ideal relationship that I hope for. As mentioned above.


Q : What type of friends do you like?
A: Friends who trust me. Friends that don't forget me and remember me as and when
they like it. Friends that will never betray me. Friends that will say they love me and
really mean it. Friends that will accept me for who I am and change me into a
better person. Friends who ask for nothing in return. And the list just goes on...


Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A: Yes. Relationships. Between my parents. Between my parents and I. Between my
friends and I. I hope they change for the better.


Q : What do you notice when you first meet a girl/guy?
A: When I meet a girl, I look at her face, then her boobs. When I meet a guy, I will
look at his face. But usually, I wouldn't dare to look at his face. Cause I'm *shy*.



End of survey. My answers are super sincere ok!! And I love doing these questionnaires. Give me more! It's fun! :D :D :D
I think people will get to know me better through these questionnaires.
And outing with Mandy and gang is cancelled. Due to project. Looks like I'm just not fated to spend time with my friends during the holidays.

Ok. I didn't get any caning. Just a whole truckload full of scolding and crying which made my eyes swollen yesterday when I woke up. And guess what. I got triple eyelid on my left eye. Lol!
I went out with my mum and sis to TM again. But I didn't talk to her all the way until after dinner. The first time we talked, she asked me which was the Guess bag that I wanted. So I showed her and she got the sales assistant to take it down. Then she asked if I liked it. Lol. Of course I like la! But then I felt that it was rather big. Looks bigger than my current esprit. But I bought it in the end.

Hallelujah!!

Ha ha. Yay! But there was something I'm not happy about. They put my bag into some cheapo looking Isetan plastic bag. Wa lao! Tsk. Like that then nobody know there's a nice and not cheap bag inside. Lol. And my sis kept saying that it looks like a huge toy. -.-"

Anyway, communication between my mum and I aren't exactly smooth yet. I felt a little guilty when she bought the bag for me. I offered to pay half. But she didn't say anything. So I never pay. Can save my money :) :)
Went home and compared the bag size. They were the same. Phew. Cause I keep having a feeling that the bags I buy are getting bigger and bigger. Lol.

New bag. Muahahahaha :D

You crazy ass. Shit you la. You are the one who started the cold war. But I must be the one to open my fucking mouth and apologise. Like what the fuck la! Super unfair can!
Plus you didn't scold me for a damn good reason. You scolded me because of a retarded reason. And I don't have any freaking idea what caused you to suddenly scold the shit out of me. If it was the dumb question that I asked, you must be the most childish person in the world.

This was the question I asked: "Mummy, can I go out with my friend this Friday?"

That's it. Such a common question some people don't even have to ask. Was this the damn thing that triggered the crazy scolding and banging of doors from you?!? I was completely taken aback when you just started shouting. And what's with the staring? You think your bloody stare can tell me what to do? You think it's some sort of projector that projects what you want me to do into my damn brain? If you want me to do it, just open your damn mouth and say it, asshole!

Ok. Fine. I tried ignoring that burning stare and concentrated on further injuring my bloody finger. But you didn't even move an inch. What's more. You grabbed a chair, sat down and continued staring at me. I couldn't stand it anymore. So I just went: "What?!? I also never say anything!" And all she did was to continue giving me the fucking irritating stare. So I just gave up, went downstairs, and did the thing she wanted me to do. Wash the socks Like super what the fuck la. If I never say it, other people might think that I have done something extremely wrong. But all these bloody commotion is just 3 fucking pairs of socks. You read it right. 3 bloody pairs of socks. Which can wait till tomorrow.

Before I continue my ranting, there is one thing that I DID NOT DO AT ALL. And that is to stare at her and give her my attitude face. And she went complaining that I gave her a onw kind face. Whatever la. Look who's talking man.

So while I'm in the toilet washing the socks, I cried. But luckily she didn't see the damn tears. You might think that it's better that she sees it. Then she wil feel guilty. WRONG WRONG WRONG. Not only will she NOT say that, I think I might have gotten a sucking slap on my face, and get shouted at even more. That's how stubborn and unreasonable that asshole is. I shall not call her a son of a bitch. Because I love my grandmother. She is the best in the world. But I took her for granted. And I totally regretted it. But in this world, there's no time for regrets. So the regret shall stay in my heart for as long as I live.

Oh ya. After she's finished with scolding me, she found another random topic and shouted like a mad woman. I swear. And she bang the fucking door so hard, I bet the neighbours got awaken by it. Ok. Fine. My sister kena her scolding as well. But this is not why I am so fucking pissed. It's because she bloody forgave my sister immediately the next day. And she refuses to even glance in my direction. You may think that that's because I got two scoldings. But the fucking problem here is, I SMSed her immediately after the bloody unreasonable scoldings. And my sister did nothing but to continue playing the com. Ya. She didn't even say she's sorry. Like super unfair la! Biased to the max man!

So I continued trying to make her forgive me by smsing her about my whereabouts. Cause the next day, I was out with the clique. But she didnt even reply to my messages. Which made me regret terribly. Not because I made her angry. Which I didn't. But because I smsed her. She didn't even give a fuck about it. So why should I care? I bet she wouldn't even bat an eyelid even if I wasn't home by 12. That's how bloody stubborn she can be.

And now. To force me to say sorry, she's threatening to cane me. I am super pissed right now. She was the one who scolded me. She was the one who stared at me and gave me a one kind attitude face. She was the one who refused to reply my smses. She was the one who started this cold war. And now I have to be the one to apologise to her or get a caning.

Fuck her la. When I said that she treats my sister much better than me, you can tell me that I shouldn't say that. Because I am always the one having the latest phone. I am always the one that buys the things that I want. That she tries to get everything that I want. But I am not referring to monetary business. I am talking about our relationship. So what if she didn't buy as many things for my sister? So what if my sister didn't get a phone as expensive as mine? So what if my jeans are all more expensive than my sister's? What I want is to feel your fucking love. And where have you spent them on? My sister. How wonderful.

Whenever both of us greet you good night, you will reply to my sister in the sweetest tone. And all I hear from you is just a grunt. That's all. And no. We didn't greet her separately. We greeted her TOGETHER! And she can reply to the both of us in a tone that's worlds apart. How nice.

If you complain that we always never greet you whenever you come home, and you're scolding us for it, why can you forgive her in the blink of an eye but not me? Why do I always have to be the one chosen to be given the cold shoulder? Why am I the one who got all the canings since young while she suffered none? How can you slap me continuosly without blinking yours eyes and poke me in the chest till my skin broke and not even bear to touch a single strand of her hair? Why is she always the angle and I, the devil? How are these difference in treatments fair?

You say that I shouldn't say that she is biased. But after all these examples that I've given you and you still say that she in not biased, I will be left speechless.

Fine. I admit that I am the one that spends money while my sister is the one that doesn't spend unnecessarily.
I am the one that have never gotten full marks or a first in class like she does. For the record, she scored straight As in her mid year exam. A feat I can never achieve.
I am the one that sits on the sofa and hogs the remote control while she does the laundry and cleans the floor. She even helps me to wash my dishes.

One more thing. All she wants is respect. For us to greet her whenever she reaches home. But there is something she doesn't notice. Our relationship is changing. For the worse. We get irritated at the slightest things she asks. She tries to be involved in the TV dramas that we watch. But all she does is to ask us questions and make retarded comments and assumptions. And yes. We behave like friends more than mother and daughter. But the things we chat about are all the trivial stuff. She doesn't talk to us about anything personal. She doesn't invade our personal space and we don't talk about hers either.

In fact, I think my friends know more about me than she does. That's how pathetic our relationship is. Yes, we used to be closer. Much closer. But that's because my grandmother was still around. She can help us solve problems. She was the one that made the family band closer. She was the reason why we had frequent outings and dinners together as a family. She was the reason the prevented her from becoming astray.

There used to be so much laughter with my grandmother around. So much warmth. For one thing, we used to have fantastic lunch and dinner. But now, all we have is maggie me for lunch. And stir fried vegetables with microwaved rice for dinner. Even though there were much more restrictions with my grandmother around, I didn't mind at all. Because we were showered with love. Love that was unspoken. Love that was shown through her actions. And I never appreciated them. But without her, everything is not the same again. And it never will be.

She wants respect from us. But how can we show her respect wen she doesn't even respect herself?

She wants respect?

She'd have to earn it from me.

Clique outing : SENTOSA!!!

Erm. Many people couldn't make it yesterday. But the seven of us still had fun.
Had breakfast at Mac. And guess what. I wasn't the last to finish! Woo hoo! :D :D
Went to buy our tickets and we're off to Sentosa. We went to Palawan beach. But I would have much preferred Siloso beach. Oh well.
So we settled down in front of this huge hole that some one dug before us. And the guys set to work digging it even deeper. The purpose was to bury bear bear. Again.
It all feels like de javu la! Everytime we go to Sentosa, the guys will dig, the girls will watch
, and bear bear will get buried. I think it's becoming a tradition. There's a difference though. The last time bear bear got buried, he was lying on the ground. This time round, he sat in the hole. And they buried him. Yep. The hole was deep.
So after burying him and snapping some shots for keepsake, they dug him out again. -_-" So lame.
Then we played sometime much more entertaining. Dog and bone. Guys versus girls. And the girls won!! Woo hoo! It's by luck actually. Cause Alex got tricked. Muahahaha! I bet he felt like killing himself on the spot. The damn game caused to pant like a dog. Literally.
After a quick rest, e played another RUNNING game. Oh my god. The forfeit was to throw the person into the water. But for bear, he will roll himself into the water. Because nobody can carry him. Haha!
Yup. And you guess it. I lost. Lol. Plus, they gave me a head start. And I still lost. That shows how pathetic my running skills ar. During the last round, I was so determined not to lose. But, my legs gave way. The practically sagged under my weight. And I saw six figures zooming ahead of me. Boo hoo.
I was ready to do the forfeit. But I didn't do the forfeit. Cause no one asked me to do it. Ha ha!
So we rested for a while and went to bathe.
The shower was like so freaking pathetic la! For a while, I really thought that the shower head in my cubicle was missing. The water was like a little more than a trickle. Lol. But we still managed to finish bathing. :)
Oh ya. And Dolyce found a tiny chick in the toilet! It's super duper cute la!!
But they returned it to the staff in Sentosa cause we couldn't find the nest to return the chick.
Lunched at Carl's Junior followed by shopping spree.
It bored the guys so much, they actually formed a group. ASC. Anti-Shopping Club. -_-"
Oh ya. Something hilarious happened. I was in forever 21 playing around with the hair bands. And I randomly took this leopardy G-string off the hook thinking that it was a hair band. Seriously! I wasn't joking around. I was speaking halfway when I suddenly realised that it was a G-string. Super funny la!! And we had fun trying on heels.
Bused home. Because i didn't want to walk such a looong distance home. And the bus ride nearly killed me. We boarded the bus at 7 plus and I only reached my bus stop at 9 plus. WTH. And i freaking knocked my head when I was going down the stairs cause the bus suddenly jerked. And I knocked my body when I was about to reach the ground floor cause the bus jerked again. Plus, I was in such a hurry to alight, I cut this aunty's path but the damn ez-link got stucked and couldn't come out. When I finally alighted, my specs became clouded with water vapour in front of a whole group of people. Super pai say can!!!
Anyway, I finally reached home. Home sweet home.
And I was greeted this morning with two aching legs and an aching back. Fannnntastic.

Finally. The dreaded term tests are finally OVER!
I really hope I wouldn't fail any. But I wouldn't be surprised if I did. Especially for PUO. It was a killer man!
Anyway, we spent an extremely long time after that trying to decide whether or not to join in the NDP activity. But we didn't in the end.
Headed to TM for lunch. To celebrate end of term test. Ha ha!
Pizza Hut didn't get to do our business cause their service was way too slow. We chose Swensens instead. Oh ya. Someone got checked out during lunch. Lucky girl la you. Ha ha. And the bill totalled to $200+! Actually it was alright la. Cause there was 12 of us. Anyway, the atmosphere was slightly awkward. But it's just between three people. Lol.
Then we walked around and Yasmeen and Jessic went to buy a birthday cake for Joshua to give him a surprise cause it's his birthday today! But he claims that he is 16 only. I think he's just young at heart. ha ha!
The walk home with Janice was rather enjoyable. Cause we were laughing all the way. Nice.
I learned many new things on msn today.
Some was pleasant. Like the many similarities the two of us share.Some was shocking. And rather unconvincing.
Anyway, my FPath results sucked. Again.


I am feeling happy now. I am feeling stressed now. I am feeling helpless. But I don't know what is bothering me. Maybe it's because of the lack of communication for such a long time? Maybe it's the lousy grades I've been getting this sem?

P.S. : Aynn, the hamster video is super cute la!! I kept laughing. Haha! :D :D