She says she wants to say something but she cannot say. So I say I help her say. So now I'm saying for her what she wants to say :) And now she asks me what I want to say. So I say that I say what she wants to say.
Retarded shit.

Wee~!! Just finished BMic lecture. it was boring. Anyway, I'm in the com lab now. together with Mandy, Alex, Wei Xiang, Ain and Ayu. Lol. And we had fun laughing at a joke we made.
One more thing. I said fuck. And mandy said fuck. Today. Is it a miracle or what?

I dislike you for giving me a miserable childhood.
I dislike you for giving me a broken family.
I dislike you for moulding me into a person with a lousy personality.I
I dislike you for letting me experience what a slap on the face feels like.
I dislike you for slapping me in public at the age of 16.
I dislike you for letting me feel the pain from a cane.
I dislike you for poking me in the chest till there were markings.
I dislike you for all the unnecessary scoldings you've given me.
I dislike you for not believing in me.
I dislike you for taking sides.
I dislike you for being biased.
I dislike you for making me feel jealous.
I dislike you for the stupid things you've done.
I dislike you for depriving me of all the hugs and kisses you've given to her.
I dislike you for the difference in the tone of voice when you speak to her.
I dislike you for protecting her.
I dislike you for saying good night to her but not to me.
I dislike you for the difference in treatment.
I dislike you for scolding me at just the tiniest bit of thing.
I dislike you for the way you stare at me like an eagle after it's prey.
I dislike you for offering her a drink right in front of my face without bothering to even glance at me.
I dislike you for the lack of love.
I dislike you for the lack of concern.
I dislike you for making me bottle up my feelings.
I dislike you for making me lead an unhealthy lifestyle.
I dislike you for causing me to drift from you.
I dislike you for making me cry today.

Went to IKEA and courts megastore. And they have lived up to their names! Cause the place was damn huge la!!!! I walked till my legs felt as if they were about to break. And my poor bladder felt as if it was about to burst. Cause there wasn't any toilet in sight sight in IKEA until you finish following the path. Which was the entire area. It was super wtf la!
Anyway, I saw a few tables that are huge. And gives me the feeling of shiokness. Lol. Super excited. Cause I can finally have a study table.
Plus plus plus, my whole house is going to be given a fresh coat of paint and air-conm installed in all three rooms. So it's coolio plus shiok-ness X3 :D

went to school for just 2 freaking hours of csas. Such a waste of time and energy and money. Anyway, teacher says that my eye contact and body language during impromptu was very weak. Like duh. Scary ma. Then i will feel scared. Then scared already will nervous. Nervous then will any how look at different directions and my hands will any how twist here and turn there. Lol!
Had a photo taking session after csas before heading to ITAS for lunch. I just ate Mandy's bee hoon cause there isn't enough time for me to order food. Drifted to buiness to find mei jun and guess who i saw. Shan wee. A dj guy i think. Anyway, i went to find bear bear after a while cause mei jun was busy and i didn't want to be a nuisance. Bear bear brought me to his 'working place'. Ha ha! The goody bags on the floor was like a mini mountain la! So many. But they say cannot give to tp students. Like wtf right. Went home after that. Cause the sun was too freaking hot for me.
But sadly, i chose the wrong bus stop to wait for the bus. Cause directly beside the bus stop was some construction work going on. So it was super loud. Lol. Bear bear waited with me till the bus came. Thank you, chao ji wu di hao peng you! :D :D
mandy came to my house to slack for a while cause she doesn't want to go home. Pro. We played a short game of uno before watching tv and chatting. She left around 6 to meet beng and kah jun to go to bugis. If i were her, i will just go home man. So late still go out. Then walk for like one two hours then go home alr. I will never ever go out sia. I will feel that it is a very 'not worth it'. In short, i'm just lazy.
Had mac for dinner. Beef prosperity is yummy! :D
P.S. : who is the girl? I want to know. :)

4 hours of break today!! But i did something freaking retarded. I actually forgotten to bring the set of shorts and shirt. So i cannot play badminton. Shit stuff. So i stupidly sat on the bench and stone for almost 2 hours. But it wasn't that bad. Cause I was entertained by handphone games and songs. Oh ya, thanks, mandy for your sandwich. It was a life saver. Ha ha!
Went to ITAS for lunch. I shared a primary school story. And Mandy laughed till she had tears in her eyes. Lol! CellB lecture after that. Wa. That lecturer speaks like a choo choo train and the way she speaks can help to cure insomnia sia. Lol.
WTech project meeting after lecture. Saw Jovin on the way to the library. I wanted to go to the toilet before going for the meeting. So mandy and I walked to the toilet. As we were walking pass the single study room, the guy in the room kept staring at us. Mandy almost wanted to ask me why when we realised it ourselves. We were heading towards the guy's toilet. Ha ha! Damn funny la. And mandy laughed till she had tears in her eyes again. That's twice in a day. Super pro can.
Project was alright. But, one of my group member was like silent for the whole of the meeting and spoke only at the end of the meeting. Wow! Beng's friend sent me one video. It was super funny la! Ha ha.
I was super distracted during the meeting. Because.... There was the mass dance and chicky dance going on downstairs!! And i can hear the music and the clapping damn clearly from the project room. Boo hoo hoo. I also want to dance mass dance :(
i am freaking excited because TP is having an open house. Retarded me -_-"

french ended early. WTF. Anyway, i'm now in a single study room alone and I just completed HPI tutorial. The room is cold. My hands are cold. But my body doesn't feel cold. In fact, it's warm. So I cannot wear a jacket. Even though i have a jacket in my bag. Cause otherwise, i will feel hot. Lol. What i just wrote is super lame. Cause i am bored. B-O-R-E-D.
I forgotten to say something. I accidentally popped my huge and red and painful pimple just now when i was towelling my hair dry. Shit stuff.
And and and, there will be some community service stuff on the 26th Jan. Cool shit. Dolyce says it's her newspaper project. So are we going around collecting newspaper? If yes, then i'll be damn excited. Cause i've never did anything of that sort. Even though it's going to be hot under the scorching sun. And my fingers are going to go black from the prints. :D :D
now i'm smsing my sister talking about nothing. Lol! Just sms for the sake of passing time. Cause i am bored. And i don't want to study HPi because it's not wednesday yet. Ha ha! But my dear sister is not of much help. Cause all her messages are super short with just a few words. Which means i have to keep thinking of something new to say otherwise the retarded conversation will end. Which means i'll be back staring into space like an idiot, alone, in the cold study room which is not cold enough to make me shiver. If you don't understand what i'm saying, then forget about it. Cause all i'm doing now is to talk crap.
Anyway, i just hope the freaking time can pass faster so i won't be alone. Cause everyone is either having lessons(like bear bear, alex, beng and mei jun), or doing project(like jia lin) or still at home(like mandy). Lucky asses. They have something to keep them entertained. Or at least, with something to do. Lol.
Anyway, after i told my sister to reply my msg with something that i can reply back, this is what she sent me :
sis : Ok. Loh.. I arh you arh..what is your fav colour? What size is your shoe? You think you pretty? You like your school? Who is your best fren?? Can? Enough?
Me : Ha ha! Your sms damn funny la.. Then now i laughing. Alone. In a room. Later people thought i'm crazy.. Lol! Anyway, I AM PRETTY!! HA HA.. :D :D
sis : Funny meh? I dun think so leh.. You think so? You think you are pretty? Think more carefuly? Are you smelly?

then after more smsing,

Me : Ha ha! Gay shit sia you.. Anyway, i need to congratulate you. Because your sms skills have improved. Now the only thing left is to add smiley faces to make your msg have more feelings.. :D :D
sis : Oic:*.. Ok ;-)i ;-)will :)improve:).. Thank:$ for B-)your :-o complement:-):-):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

it's super lol plus super random can? And i actually laughed. Alone. In a room. The only thing left is some people peering in to look at me as if i'm a lunatic. Haha!
Anyway, i'm still bored the only difference now is, my hands have turned purple from the cold my my body is still warm -_-"
one last thing. Mandy called me like finally. Asked me where am I. Then i told her i was in the study room rotting alone. And she was like :
What?!?!" cause she said she was rotting alone at home. Lol. She thought i had company and i thought she wanted to study. -_-"

Firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENA ONG!!
So unfair la. You can watch NC16 movie alr. While i had to wait till like end of the year then can watch.. Lol.
Anyway, watched They Kiss Again early this morning. It's super nice ok. But i watched till the fourth part then the retarded com auto off. Gay shit. And i cried at one part. Must watch. Super touching ok. I cried leh. Me leh. Felicia ong you know. I actually cried. Lol. Big deal.. -_-"
Went to bathe before eating maggie mee. French tutorial later at 2. Super sian-ness pls. I don't like frenchhhhhh!
I cleverly forgotten to check where the classroom was. Shit stuff.
2 hours of break alone later. Boo hoo. Wish me luck.WTech at 6. -_-"

Today is lecture day. Cause i'm having lecture from 9 till 3. I think MSt2 is a goner. I understnad like 5% of what the lecturer teaches? Lol. Anyway, Mandy made a new and random friend today. I don't have any sense of liking towards her. Cause she is loud and super bold and greedy. Maybe not greedy. Just ultra thick skinned. She went :"I wannntttt......" when I was eating my honey stars and minding my own business. Then Mandy tap my hand and I turned my head to see the girl strtching her hand over and helping herself to the honeystars. It's not that she took a handful just one star. But the problem was not the amount of stars she took. But, which idiot would go and ask for food from a stranger that you sat beside you for barely half an hour???? -_-" my face spelt one word : unfriendly. Cause I didn't even give her a smile.
I wouldn't give a damn if a FRIEND just came over and asked for a handful. But she doesn't even know my name and I didn't know hers. It's like super WTF la.
Lunched at Design. The afternoon sun was such a killer, even the guys cannot stand it and switched place. Lol. Went to library bookshop to print one set of note for CellB. And we took like 20 minutes just for that one set of notes to be printed. I think I should go there often. Not to be frustrated. But to train my patience. I was like complaining like shit la. While mandy just stood there and waited patiently. Pro. Ha ha. Went to AS printing shop to photocopy cause the library one takes ages and ages. Another enemy for my patience. Anyway, we went into LT7 from the FRONT door with everyone staring at us like we're some freaks only to leave cause there's no place. TP is stingy. So mandy and I skipped lecture.
New lecturer for CellB. And I almost fell asleep. Actually, i did fall asleep. For a little while. The two hours was torturous la. Cause she was speaking damn fast and her speech was super sian. But, one good thing was, her lecture ended half an hour earlier. Ha ha!
Went to the com lab to print notes for WTech and some tutorials. Thank you, mandy for helping me print all the notes wtihout complaining. At least not out loud. Ha ha. I was busy reading blogs and updating myself with other people's life. Mandy took the bus with me and alighted at my bus stop. Just to waste time. Lol. If I was her, i will just stone in school. Cause i'm too lazy to move. Anyway, I went to on the com immediately after I reached home. And it lasted for barely 10 minutes before shutting down. shit. So I went down to have my lunch. My mum ta bao home yoshinoya. Yummy! Watched tv plus ate some snacks before bathing and doing french tutorial. French sucks la. Cause it's super difficult plus I skipped one tutorial plus i have to do a presentation tomorrow. Anyway, school starts at 2 tomorrow. Wee!! But I have to spend two freaking hours alone cause mandy have to be in school only at 6. Boo hoo. Lol.
P.S : i'm starting to dread french tutorials and lectures. :(

One huge and extremely important news :I HAVE A FREAKING HUGE AND RED AND PAINFUL PIMPLE ON MY FOREHEAD!! Super sian.
Anyway, woke up at 8. Cause we had to go to the temple to pray. My grandpa's death anniversary. Everything smells like joss sticks. And the ask was like everywhere when we were buring the paper in the furnance thingy. We ended up smelling like burnt paper.
Went to this place that sold delicious food for brunch. The chicken rice rocks. The pork chop rocks. The vegetables rocks. Yummy! :) :) headed to Kelly's house after that. Like finally. Cause my mum doesn't like to go to their house. I don't know why. Anyway, PAM IS FREAKING CUTE CAN. Maple-ed a little before heading for my house.
Introduced bu bu to my cousins before proceeding to dismantle all the cuopboards and stuff upstairs. The house was like damn dirty plus damn stuffy. And my mum was like super irritable and screams at the slightest bit of thing. Which makes me super buay song. So I attitude her. And she sttitude back. Then i kept my mouth shut. Ha ha! Loser. I don't want to get a tight slap you know. Everyone left at arounf 7 plus while we continued cleaning up the whole house. We didn't have dinner in the end. Just took our bath and went to sleep.
School at 9 tomorrow. Ultra sian-ness.

Met mandy early in the morning for mac breakfast. And i actually walked to the wrong mac. Like what the shit. And to make matters worse, the shoe I was wearing had no friction at all. Gay. So i was like damn awkward cause I was afraid people would notice that I was experiencing difficulty in walking and preventing myself from slipping accidentally. Totally pathetic. When I finally reached the correct mac, I went in and couldn't find mandy. She was waiting outside the mac. Lol.
I ordered fillet-o-fish. I think the last time I ate it was like during sec 3? But it was yummy. So I have something new to order next time. Anyway, i feel stupid. Cause I didn't know there was such a thing as student meal. So i went to order the normal meal when everything was exactly the same. Only cheaper. Gay shit la. Whatever. Wess lee joined us later and he shared some subway stories with us. I have one hint. Don't trust the slogan : subway, eat fresh.
Went to the ticket booth to meet up with the rest of the WTech members to go for project. And luckily, i was clever enough to remember that we didn't have the materials for the project. Lol. And we spent like 2 hours just to but 4 stuff. Such a waste of time. And clairmond happily pang seh us without bothering to let us know. Wow.
But we managed to alight at the correct bus stop in the end. The guys discussed about the project while mandy and I busied ourselves making santa bags. Lol. Super lame la. But it's cute. :D went down the the playground to play the swing after that while clairmond squatted under the hot dun sifting sand into a container. Dumb shit. Went to the coffeshop to eat. I had rojak with nothing but you tiao and the sauce. Cool shit. Plus damn nice. Complated the prototype and tested it out. The outcome was a slightly clearer muddy water. Which means it failed. Anyway, i was rushing home to bathe and get ready for dinner later on.
Dinner was at swissotel merchant court. My sister's birthday dinner. The food was shiok. So are the people. Besides the super lame things they say. And the lies they tell. Me. Ha ha!
P.S : buffets rocks socks! :D :D

CSAS presentation today!! Omg omg omg. It was freaking scary can. Anyway, mandy and I wore the most formal in the class today. But I felt invisible. :(
The sequence was according to register number. But since Janice had something on, dolyce had a swollen tongue, hidayu had sore throat and someone else that was absent, I became the 10th person to speak. Like WTF la!! Ha ha. But it's better to get it over and done with. And to reduce the length of time having a funny stomach. I randomly picked a longer strip if paper and the topic goes something like this :
Do you think that the school does a better job at teaching sex than parents? Why do you think so.

My mind was like on the brink of shutting down man. Everything was like super blur and the 3 minutes for thinking was like gone in a flash. All the while I was trying to calm down and try to think. THANK YOU, YASMEEN. For extending my 3 minutes quietly. Muacks muacks muacks :D :Di was freaking nervous when I was standing in front of the class la. I'm never good in front of a whole freaking crowd of people. Imagine 20 pairs of eyes staring at you. S-C-A-R-Y.
My mouth was like twitching and my hands shivering by the end of my speech. I hope I did ok. Besides the eye contact part. And the rapport part. And the fluency part. And the language part. And the content part. And and.. The other parts. Which is literally everything. Lol. -_-"
Anyway, it was a huge sense of relief after my turn was over. I was like "phew!". Ha ha.
I have one ground breaking, earth shattering piece of news to share :
kang long, the scariest, the most avoided, the super stingy, the lie teller IS GOING TO BE BACK NEXT WEEK!!
My reaction? Oh shit. Gay shit. Retarded shit. Shit shit. Shit him la. So lame. He missed everything, including the term tests and suddenly, he calls alex and says he will be back for impromptu speech. I bet he's going to give us another speech on COMMUNICATION. Despite the topic he picks, he's going to start with : i think communication is very important.... lol!
Anyway, I wasn't in the mood for going home. So I suggested going out. Maybe just for window shopping. So mandy suggested Bugis. But, it started raining. So beng called the others to cancel their bicycle 'expedition' and joined us. But we changed the venue to TM instead cause bear bear had to reach school by 6 later. So mandy and I went to TM and then CS to check out movie timings. And something funny happened. Funny as in weird. Cause the screen showed the time for golden compass. But then when it repeated itself later, the golden compass disappeared. Lol. And we stood there for like 5 minutes waiting for golden compass to reappear again. Retarded shit right.
We ended up watching Mr. Magoriums's Wonder Emporium in GV. And sad to say, I started feeling tired and fell asleep for a while when the movie was running. Tsk. Waste my money. Lol! Anyway, the movie was alright. And Mr. Magorium is super cute please. :) :)
i was close to freezing point when the movie ended and I almost froze when we walked out of GV. Cause TM was like freaking cold la. Must be due to the cold weather. Anyway, we drifted into Toys'r'us. The crocodile game is super fun la. Ha ha. And exciting. Wee. I didn't get my hand bitten at all. Just call me pro. :D we played with all the childish games and toys before going home. Cause bear bear was extremely late for his seminar. Sorry bear bear. :)
P.S. : beng says he saw kang long after we left. Eww!